I should really get in the habit of writing here more often, I find that when I do I get rid of stress and feel relaxed. No matter how many things I have to do I will take a little time off and write. I partly got inspired because I have been reading Sylvia Plath's journals and i love how she can write about abslutely anything and make it sound interesting she has such an amazing imagination and I have to admit I am obsessed with her.

 Anyways, i am super stressed out because I have no idea of which college I want to attend. The colleges that I have considered are either too far away or too close. Also, I am afraid of moving out and at the same time I can't stand it here and can't wait until I leave. So I am very confused and scared. I don't want high school to end but at the same time i can't wait until it's over so that I can move out and experience other things and meet new people.

Current music: Bjork- Scatterheart

Had a good Monday today. Better than most. I woke up feeling depressed for some reason but by 4th period I was feeling pretty happy.

Anyways I am so lost in Physics I have no idea what the teacher is talking about and everyone seems to understand it just fine except for me. I stare at the board but my mind just wanders off and he just starts writing numbers and equations everywhere and before I know it we have to answer the questions and I have no clue what he's talking about. Oh well I am just not smart enough for Physics.

I am supposed to be studying for a test right now and I have to write an essay for Engilsh :( 

On Thursday I went to see My Bloody Valentine!!

I saw them at the Santa Monica Civic and they were amazing! I got there at 5:00 and the doors opened at 7:30.

I felt a rush of excitement when they finally opened the doors and I went inside. I was right in front of the stage, second row. This was the first concert I've ever been to so I didn't know what to expect. I bought a t-shirt then went inside.

After Spectrum and Gemma Hayes played, My Bloody Valentine came out and everyone started cheering and I just couldn't believe I was finally going to get to see them live! Bilinda was like right infront of me and she's so beautiful. Kevin placed himself on the other side of the stage and I couldn't really see him because the security guard was blocking my view. I popped my earplugs on right before they came on stage and as soon as they started playing I took them back out because I wanted to really feel the music. It was fucking loud but I had expected to go deaf which I didn't. I could feel the vibrations all thoughout my body, it was truly an amazing experience. I looked around and everyone reacted to the music differently. Some people danced, some just stood and stared and some closed their eyes and just listened.

The time passed by so fast and I didn't think it was as loud as I was expecting it. At the end though when they began their 15 minute or so feedback I thought my ears were going to explode.The lights on stage began flickering and dancing to the point you could barely see. I could see Colm going mad at the drums but I couldn't make it out, and for a moment I thought I was going to faint, it was so hot and I was incredibly thirsty. When it was over I really wanted them to come back out again.

Oh it was an amazing concert and I am so glad I went. I only hope their album comes out soon!